Eleseer

“The Half”

Good God it seems it’s slipped away
I cast you off into new
Carry on your conversation
And waste away in our new home
Lucid here, but parallel souls
Languish off in gardens of green
There I wander, carrying no weapons
Eternally to walk in seamless dreams

Memories in clear shades
More vibrant than the world you’ve come to know
All I could wish to see
Laid out before my face, alone
Have we lost the way?
This is no escape
Floating through your memories
Reliving each passing day

I can hear it now
Open my eyes

Cut the strings moving me
Rise through the fire
Wake up and start tearing
Disconnect every wire

Glooming terror
Haunting you
Day in, day out
Pulling, clawing
Ripping your fucking eyes out

Blonde mornings behind you now
Waste of all connection
Nothing but phatic gloss
Plagued by the

Waves made from stones I cast
Onward
In my sleep, years away
Yet still I feel you
Ever
In my bones, in my soul

Will reckless ways find you?
The day you do too?
Will reckless
(Don’t look back)
The day you
(Find your peace)

My eyes, it was real?
All that I see
The choice at your feet
You’ll have to do this for me

“Smite”

Lost the way, right away
Chiseling at my skin
Whatever comes to me now
Will be my opiate
Taking the burn away
Firing through my veins while I look Hell in the eye
(I) now see

My own animus, suffering
My own self – withering
Flashes back of the past, now
All I see ricochets
In this state, in my eyes
The truest fault of my conscience
Formless fear taking all that’s mine
It’s gone

Broken beyond all
Wasted time

Fear of death
Is just a fear of life
Or so I used to tell myself, but now
Here I lie
Facing the consequence
The years of repressed hate for the ailments
My last chance before I breathe out water

In myself, of myself
Guaranteed to end me
Living without a reason
Suffered fate
Unlike I ever thought possible
Broken beyond redemption
Condemned to suffering
One more eternity
For all that’s left of my days
Withering, decaying
Here for my final stay

My escape?
My new prison
God forbid
The path to heaven

One final claw for control
My last grab for death, forever
My last ditch to close my fucking life out
Carried by six, a final turn of the pages

“Ten Twenty-Five”

Constant anemoia
Grieving joy never known
Scarred hearts now cursed by the
Nightmare of the love
Wake up
Exist in parallel constant Hell, I built
Beauty in broken stone
Kingdoms crumble to rubble
I can’t fucking watch anymore

Spit out his soul
Her eyes could clearly see
They’re what they swore to never be

Haunted, the 25th
Waking paralysis
Comatose, still conscious
No control
Obscured by the grey skies
Addicting misery
Suffer in silence now
Sculpting out my Hell

Gone, can’t be found
Lost inside of my mind
Ten, Twenty-Five. The day it died
It died

Spit out his soul
Her eyes could clearly see
They’re what they swore to never be

“Attrition”

Measuring my patience
Witnessing you collapsing
Pounds of guilt weigh on me
What was someday, leagues away – tangible now
Last sight of all I know
Before my eyes close

I can’t wait for this
Learn what death defines
How I spent my days
Waste of my life

Prove to me this was real
And to you, I will raise up my broken hands to the sky
So you can snap even more
Ruin me
Please make it worse, make it hurt
Just want to feel again

All you’ve done
Tortured my whole world every day
Cry for help
But you spit in my open hands

I can’t wait for this
Learn what death defines
How I spent my days
Waste of my life

“The Whole”

Lift away the veil
Unbroken shade over all
Now that it’s long gone
An emptiness carried on
The bittersweet taste of fate

This is I, mine alone
Infinity’s grip pulling me

If only I could end the war
They’re given all that I long for
Living out my every dream
Under siege for future days
The shadow of love cast its haze
Glooms upon my closing scene

This is I, mine alone
Eternity’s grasp holding me

Truest abandon
“Whatever” has come to me
The condition
From the cradle to the grave

Hands grab for the walls
The last chance at lucidity

We walked through this world
Shattering time behind us
A hollow existence
Looking down at what you missed

You were the fulcrum between my heart and soul

One final dream about you
The one that taught me all I knew
The beauty that I could behold
From fourteen trips to eons old
And still it never made sense
My war, the lord may understand
Yet here a standstill, years away
I cannot purge you out of me
A broken corpse, withered in ground
(You gave more than)
Consuming me and tearing down
(My life was worth)
The pinnacles that we built
(Now I fade out)
Sinking as the pedals wilt
(Unbind the curse)
My consciousness is closing in
(I gaze back now)
The sinking vessel, drowning
(Upon my days)
The years of wasted suffering
(I look through you)
Never to be whole again
(Burning, in haze)
With so much of me to give away
(The air falls still)
Now a broken soldier’s final day
(My eyes fell blind)
A lifetime built out of disdain
(In final peace)
A world that can’t be whole again
(Infinite Sky)